Diary of a runner.

Never in a million years would I look at myself and say, yeah. that girls a runner.

In the last 3 weeks I have been doing the C25k running app. It has been a struggle. Last week was definitely a struggle. It was the longest spurt of running I think i have ever done in my life and I thought I was going to fall. 

I am beginning to think that I might have asthma. I know the difference between my body being out of breath and that weird feeling of "I can't breathe and that phlegm that forms when you have asthma." all of this to say that I WILL be pushing forward and I WON'T stop running. It is such a free feeling being able to run and, yes I still giggle, and yes, at times my body does hurt during the process, but man does my body feel so much better afterward. 

I went yesterday for a run and when I got home I was so pumped I could have taken over the world. I feel so much better being active. It is amazing that all this time i didn't think that being active and healthy was a good idea. 

I look forward to getting up every morning and going to boot camp and going for a run. 

I HAVE TAKEN MY LIFE BACK!

it is strange how our bodies change.

So in the last few weeks I have really started to see/feel a change in my body. I can see the muscle definition and I can feel it internally and externally. I haven't weighed myself in almost a week and I have some mixed feelings about it.
I know that it is a good thing for me right now, to wait another 6 weeks until getting on a scale. I will be disappointed and I don't want that. I am feeling so good right now that I don't want to ruin it. I didn't get upset about the changes that are happening inside, so out of sight, out of mind.
That has to be one of the most frustrating things about weight loss. To top it all off, it seems like I am not losing weight as fast as everyone else and when I look in the mirror I see the same girl 145 pounds ago.
I did go a get new bathing suits, which are 3 sizes smaller then last summer, and new dresses that are a size smaller. That is definitely a plus. I know that the scale hasn't changed as much as I would like, but my body is changing and that is all that matters. I know that the scale will catch up eventually.