stubborn 5 pounds.

Its now monday, my "official" weigh in day. I am still floating in the upper range then where I was a few days ago. Went to disneyland and walked around for 3 hours and got some exercise in for the day. I will be hitting the gym tomorrow. I am aware of the weight that comes from TOM and from not having enough water and all that. I did pretty well yesterday eating wise and even today. I haven't even began to eat like i used to before. I have a binge here and there but none of the "just today and tomorrow will change" days. Each day is new, and I am so grateful for that.
My knees are feeling better and not sore like they were yesterday. Standing was miserable yesterday, and with the heat, I was extra cranky. I didn't get that much sleep last night and on our way home from disenyland i had to take a nap because I was so tired. So thankful lissa drove and I was able to nap a bit. I am still tired and ready for an early night. I get so exhausted from the weekends I can't even think straight on mondays. They are the worst days. I might change my weigh in days because I don't want to be depressed starting the week. Maybe fridays?
There are times when I just need to say no and go home. But I never do. what is wrong with me? Oh well. That is one thing I guess I need to keep working on. I love hanging out with my friends and when I get home I just stay up anyway so I guess its dumb either way.

I am still kinda cranky and feel like crying. Not sure why. emotions are stupid. I hate them and the fact and sometimes I cry and it doesn't make sense, then im mad because its normal that it doesn't make sense... #girlproblems.

2012 GOALS.

So I decided to post my goals so I can celebrate the WINS with all of you.

I am so excited that I will get to get 3 charms for my charm bracelet in a few weeks. Not sure which ones I want, but I know they will be an amazing addition to my new DODGER charm bracelet.  I have accomplished 3 so far! I am so excited. What a great reminder of how far I have come. 

My weight loss goals for 2012: TOTAL weights loss: 237

1. Lose 30 pounds: (by April 1^st 2012) -30 [GOAL ACCOMPLISHED!]
2. Lose 50 pounds: (by June 1^st 2012) -20 
3. Lose 65 pounds: (by August 1^st 2012) -15
4. Lose 90 pounds: (by October 1^st 2012) -25
5. Lose 100 pounds: (by December 1^st 2012) -10
6. Lose 125 pounds: (by February 1^st 2013) -25
7. Lose 145 pounds: (by April 1^st 2013) -20
8. Lose 165 pounds: (by June 1^st 2013) -20
9. Lose 190 pounds: (by September 1^st 2013) -25
10. Lose 215 pounds: (by November 1^st 2013) -15
11. Lose 240 pounds: (by January 1^st 2014) – 25

1. Lose 10% of body weight (37.7) [COMPLETED!!] 
2. Lose 25% of body weight (94.25)
3. Lose 50% of body weight (188.5)
4. Lose 65% of body weight (245.5)
5. New 10's place [COMPLETED III]

1. Exercise 4 times a week. [COMPLETED]
2. Getting more sleep.
3. Switch up calories between 1200-2100[COMPLETED]
4. Be able to wear letterman’s jacket again 
5. Shop in the normal side of target. (size 12 pants size medium/large shirt) [FINALLY OUT OF FAT LADY CLOTHES]
6. Run a 5K and 10K by December 2012
7. Train for a marathon in 2013
8. Drink more water
9. RUN!!!
10. To be the “skinny” friend. (with a sweet rack) 

what are your frustrations?

Waking up this morning to find that I had somehow in 1 single day gained just over 3 pounds was rather frustrating to me.

Now, I can be a rather sensible person and also rather logical. I know that there are many factors playing a part in this weight gain. 1. I am, even now at 3:20pm almost 24 hours after my 5k I am still dehydrated. I feel aweful. I can't seem to get enough water into me. Since I've been up for about 8 hours I've had over 100 ounces of water. I am still so very thirsty. I am trying to stay cool with A/C and what not, it isn't very easy. It seems that all I am doing today is drinking water. 2. I am still on my period (sorry TMI for all you men, if any, that might be reading this) :] I know that it is natural to gain a few and be bloated for a few days and that shows on the scale. 3. Going to a friends how and having homemade chinese food and not actually keeping track of every thing I was eating. Its ok to splurge here and there and I haven't been able to do that on something I really wanted to in a long time. There is that part of our brains that see a negative changes and get discouraged and want to quit. That is not the case for me. I am still determined, more then ever to get to the gym. I did promise to take 2 days and rest. I am super sore from the 5k and walking outside that my knees need to rest. I have spent the last 2 weeks at the gym with no breaks and now is a good time to do that.

In other news, the Autism Speaks Walk Now for Autism was yesterday and it was so AWESOME. It was a great route and I wish I lived closer so that I could walk it more often. SO many people out for the cause, even a few celebrities. Even though max wasn't having any of it we all still had a good time and I got the beginnings of my summer skin. I can't wait for next year.

It was very weird waking up and not going to the gym right away. It has started to become a habit. I love my time there where I can walk and not think about anything. It is my only glimpse into seeing what its like to be a man and not think about anything for any period of time. I have a blister on my toe that needs to heal and these few days will do just that.

Its a happy sunday here, hope everyone is having a great one as well.

WEEK 2 working out is the business.

April 20th, 2012 3:14pm

Today marks the 2 weeks I have faithfully gone to the gym everyday and worked out for at least a half hour. I made a goal at the beginning of the month that I would try to go 10 miles a week. Thats a little under 1.5 miles a day. I have been averaging about 2.5 every day in just under an hour. I feel great each time I leave the gym. I am full of energy and my mind is clear. I am able to think clearly and go about my day relatively stress free.

In 2007 I was diagnosed with Spinal Stenosis. It is a rare back disorder where the spin curves inward instead of outward at the bottom. This causes lots of other problems. For starters, obesity is top on the list, as well as frequent nerve damage and nerve pain, which can cause my limbs to go numb for a period of time for no reason. I have several spots on my legs and toes where there is permanent damage and numbness all day long. My doctor prescribed a nerve medication and that didn't work so I stopped taking them. I had such bad back pain that even walking around at work was difficult and I hated my life. I asked my doctor what to do and he just kept giving me more pain meds and kept telling me I was fat. After taking every diet pill i could get my hands on legally and the advice of my doctor was to cut calories and not exercise as it would irritate my back and cause harm. Well, its now 6 years later and my back is perfectly fine. I walk/run 2-3 miles a day and lift weights. I have no back pain and no need to see my chiropractor either. When I would walk long distances my back would burn so bad that I wanted to cry.

I have been relatively active most of my life. Im not a marathon runner or anything, however while in high school I was active with choir and drama and it seemed like every year my classes couldn't have been more spread out all over campus. As time went on, I wasn't as active and working in an office you start to get, as my father used to say, the secretary's spread. All I did working in an office was eat and sit. When I started working at camp, I became more active and walked around all over the place. Lost some weight, not a ton. That has been my life, on and off, losing weight and gaining it back. I finally reached a point now where I want to keep losing and never get it back.

Going to the gym everyday keeps me sane.
I get to have time to just think and clear my head. It seems like my days are easier, ( not all the time, but more often then not.) and I am so much happier. it is worth the investment of going everyday to keep my sanity.

As of today, Im 37.9 pounds lighter, my BMI is down 9.6 percent and I have lost over 10 inches on my waist and hips.

Tell me your weight loss stories... I would love to hear them.

My weight loss journey. 4/19/2012

I have decided to write and share tips about my new found desire to workout and be healthy. It is definitely a new desire, as I am now addicted to it!!


I want to share my experiences and daily in's and out's with the hopes of being able to help those who need it and to gain insight to my new found addiction. That sounds so bad using the word addiction, I can't seem to find another word for it. ( if you find a new one, let me know )   :-]


here, to begin my blog I will post the advice I have given a few people in the last few weeks and they have all started losing weight!! Its awesome to see people taking their health into their own hands and finding results.


I am not a doctor or any type of professional, however I am a professional dieter and have been researching the subject for quite a while.


I have been trying to eat every 3 hours. Small meals. The last few weeks I've been on vacation and sleeping in and that has changed. But usually I eat a small breakfast. Usually eggs and a carb. Usually a piece of bread. And a fruit. With lots of water. Right now my favorite thing to drink is lemon or lime water with a Splenda. Sorta like lemonade but no calories. I am not a huge water fan but drinking it with lime or lemon I drink lots more. My goal  for water is 100 ounces. I have a 25 ounce bottle and I drink at least 1 while I work out and 3 through out the day. Mostly when I'm eating. It also helps me to be full faster then with just eating. 
Breakfast(8am) eggs or cereal. With bread an fruit. 
Snack(10am) protein and a fruit. No carbs. (this is usually after I work out) 
Lunch (1pm) salad with fruit. And usually cheese and other add ins like tomatoes and cucumbers. I will also have either a half a sandwich or soup. 
Snack(3pm) is a protein and a fruit or veggie. Try to stay away from the carbs. 
Dinner(5:30pm) something with lots of protein and a big salad. 

I try not to eat later then 6pm because I have found that eating earlier my food has longer to digest and I will lose weight over night. I work out 3-5 days a week. 30-60 mins of cardio depending on how much time I have to work out. 
I do weight machines on my arms and legs on alternating days. 

The key is taking it one day at a time. Also drink lots of water. As you burn fat it turns to water and that causes water weight gain. 
Drinking water flushes out Your system and promotes more weight loss.  :)

Tell me what you have been doing and what your goals are. 
1-2 pounds a week is normal weight Loss. I always plan on at least one and if there's more then awesome. Sometimes our body's plateau and that's normal as well. 


I'm not a pro and I fail at times. This program does work. I've done everything under the sun and this I the first time I've been successful. 
I also make sure to have a day where I cheat a bit. This helps keep your body guessing an changing your calories weekly does as well. 
I eat between 1200-1800 calories a week. I also try not to eat the calories I've burned. 

Here are some of my tips. I will be adding more every couple of days to document my loses and goals.